Spice Up Your Life, Week 8

I’m making up my own challenge today. That challenge is to admit 5 things to yourself that you’ve been trying to hide. You know when you just get that “gut feeling” about something or someone, but you don’t want to believe it? That has happened to me about quite a few things lately. Here’s my 5 confessions if you will:

  1. I really like hot yoga. I know there’s a lot of articles and research out there that tells you why it’s bad, but I just adore it. Yoga is one of my favorite things in the world to do, but I also like to feel like I’m getting a good workout in. When I was in college and practicing Baptiste hot yoga daily, I was the happiest I’ve ever been in my entire life. Unfortunately, there is no similar studio anywhere near where I currently live. It gave me a sense of clarity while still kicking my butt. Don’t get me wrong, I love practicing yoga at a regular temperature as well. My aunt is a phenomenal yoga teacher in Chicago and her classes make me feel on top of the world. But I have this terrible misconception in my head that “yoga isn’t a workout and I need to workout.” That’s ridiculous. I should do what I feel like and forget the rest. Since I’ve been doing TurboFire, my body has felt strong and confident, but I’m finding that I’m too tired later in the day to even do 30 minutes of yoga. Boooo. I miss it. Anyone have any suggestions on how to regain energy later in the day if I’ve already completed a workout in the morning?
  2. I am a loner. Now this isn’t as bad as it sounds. I have an amazing family and core group of friends. I seem to meet really awesome people in my daily life and really cherish the relationships I have. However, I like to be alone. I love silence. I love being able to do whatever I want, whenever I want, without being judged. Since Luke and I are moving in together, I’m going to need to learn to be with another person 24/7! Our work schedules are pretty opposite, so we actually won’t even be together that much during the week, but it will still definitely be an adjustment. It is definitely an adjustment that I am majorly looking forward to. Ideally, I will be able to work fully from home (except when I have clients to train) so I can get my alone time in during the day and be social with Luke and my friends at night. Fingers crossed I can make this happen sooner, rather than later! It will take time, but it will happen. 001002003
  3. Even though my brain says differently, in my heart I know that my body is healthy and strong. I figured this out the other morning when I was doing TurboFire in my basement in our dance studio. There’s mirrors surrounding the floor so you’re able to see every little movement. As I was watching myself jumping, twisting, squatting, and just sweating my butt off, I saw my body for how others do. I was happy with what I saw. However, the second I put my real clothes on and felt my jeans a little bit tight, I went right back to hating my image. I’ve been trying really hard to remember how wonderful and strong and beautiful exercise makes me feel. I may  not always feel like that, but I can try my hardest to bottle up that feeling and use it on my harder body image days.
  4. If I could, I would eat gummy bears all day every day. The other day I made a wonderful discovery. A local grocery store sells gummy bears BY FLAVOR. I kid you not, you can buy a whole tub of blue raspberry bears. Which I did. And a whole tub of watermelon bears. Which I also did. Oops. Luckily I was able to pass some off to Luke and the girls I nanny, but I’m still left with way too many for myself. Oh, who am I kidding. I will eat them all. Every last one. Pre-Easter candy? Sure, I’ll take it. 007
  5. I need to get out of Michigan. I have tried so hard to convince myself to like it here. The truth of the matter is that I just don’t. I’m bored here. It’s very depressing at times. The weather sucks 90% of the time. I’ve burned a lot of bridges here and just want a clean slate. I don’t want to move away forever (I don’t think at least), but I do want to get out for at least a year to experience a different part of the country. I feel like I have been so sheltered here my whole life that I don’t know what it’s like to truly build myself up from scratch. I understand how different and difficult it would be, but I think it’s something I need in order to appreciate the wonderful things that I already have in my life. I tend to take things for granted and think a big change would be just the reality check I need to show myself how good I truly do have it.

I could go on and on with this list for days, but I’ll spare you all the details. I will tell you that I got a massage yesterday morning and it was truly the best one I’ve ever ha din my whole entire life. The lady was so nice and talkative and didn’t make me feel awkward at all, like I usually do. Plus she gave me a chocolate when I left. That was good. I spent the rest of the day working on the computer, doing yoga, finishing the first season of Girls (in less than 24 hours…..), and maybe drinking some wine. It was a solid day.

I also ate some pretty yummy things, including tiramisu coffee,

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pear Chobani with berries, banana, and roasted flaxseed,

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and Tone It Up inspired kale chips and guacamole.

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What are your 5 confessions?

Comments

  1. I did the move away thing, and it kinda sucks building up from scratch. But I have a much better idea of what it is I want out of my life because I did it. I know what I want out of my relationships – and who the truly important people in my life are. I have a better idea of what I want work-wise. And I have a serious sense of accomplishment because I did this 700 miles away from everyone I’ve ever known. If you’re able to do it, it’s definitely worth doing. (I think those were some of my confessions, too 0 I’m not sure I’ve really said those things out loud quite like that before.)

    P.S. Yay for moving out and in with Luke! That’ll be fun. My boyfriend and I are also on pretty opposite schedules.. and I work from home. I get to spend some time with him in the morning before he goes to work, and then I have HOURS to myself. I’m the same way in that I need time for myself, so it works out pretty nicely.

    • allison.hayes91 says:

      WOW. That is great advice. Thank you so much for letting me know that it would be worth it, even if it’s really tough. Deep down I know that but it’s nice to have a reminder from people who have been there before me! Glad you and the bf are on such a good schedule…I’m praying that happens for us, too :)

  2. Gummy bears by flavor, I need to go there. I am the same way with yoga. I just find normal yoga a bit too boring. it is why I really liked hot yoga that was had more movement and flow. I am a loner too, I think it is because I have become so comfortable spending my time alone than with others. I hope that begins to change though

    • allison.hayes91 says:

      The gummy bears make me so happy. I’m doing a surprise egg hunt for Luke in the morning and filled them with rainbow gummies. He better appreciate that :p I hope my loner-ness changes, too. I’m done trying to make myself change though. If it happens, it happens.

  3. I’m the same way with my area. I want to move away for a few years (I’m thinking North Carolina or Virginia) and build up a life elsewhere. I might eventually come back, but we’ll see.

  4. There have been MANY times where I wonder what life would have been like if I’d taken my sister up on her offer to live with her in NJ after I graduated from college and start fresh there.I wouldn’t have been on my own exactly, but I would have been making a new life for myself away from a place that has so many memories (both good and bad). I love my life in Pittsburgh, and I wouldn’t have met Joe if I had moved, but there’s still definitely a part of me that wishes I could live somewhere else for bit before settling back here. Still might get the chance to do that, I know, but it will be a lot harder since there’s two of us to consider. You know you’re welcome in Pittsburgh anytime…house behind us that shares a patio with us is for rent…just saying ;)

    • allison.hayes91 says:

      Girl, you don’t even know how tempting that is. Do you know what rent is….? :p There’s time for both of us to get out there and experience more than what we have now. I think we have such great guys that they would support us, no matter what. And if they don’t, we can leave them together and you and I can go off and play.

  5. I could definitely go for the day that you had yesterday, that sounds so amazing! These were fun to read :) I love your honesty!!

  6. Kudos for coming up with your own 5 confessions! I do enjoy my alone time too. :)

  7. Becky @ Olives n Wine says:

    This is a great post! I love that you’re willing to share these “secrets” with your readers :) Some of my confessions are similar to yours… I love my alone time and I hate where I’m living and need to get out before it eats me alive!

    • allison.hayes91 says:

      Let’s just find somewhere and go. I’m so tempted. I just need like a fabulous job opportunity in Santa Monica or something like that, haha.

  8. I moved away post-college graduation and started from scratch in Chicago. It was the best thing I’ve ever done! I learned more about myself in that first year than I did my entire life and I fully believe that put me in the place I needed to be in life to meet my husband, get the career I wanted and really figure out what I wanted out of life!

  9. Those kale chips and the guacamole sound amazing! Did you eat them together? I would never think to do that, but it sounds tasty :) .

    • allison.hayes91 says:

      Yup! I scoop some guac on a fork and then put kale on the fork and eat it. They’re not “chip-consistency” enough to actually scoop, haha. But still delicious.

  10. I’m really hoping to hit up hot yoga this week to help me through an injury. My body NEEDS it!!

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