Um, I am super excited.

TO TELL YOU THAT I GOT AN IPHONE 5 ON SATURDAY WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! After my phone broke last Monday, I told my dad and anticipated that it would be at least a month before we upgraded our plan, but he totally came through and got the new phones in less than a week. When you previous had a vintage sliding Sprint phone with a touch-screen that didn’t work, an iPhone is like, the coolest thing in the world to get. And lucky me, I was at a dance competition all day so I had loads of entertainment.

Want to know a super embarrassing story though? So we got the phones on Saturday and the wonderful man at the store told my dad that we had to run the battery on the phones completely down and then charge it 100% and that should help save the battery. So I did what I was told and let my phone die, and then plugged it in when I went to bed Saturday night (or so I thought). I woke up Sunday morning and it was still dead. Rude. So I totally thought I had a bad charger because I tried it with my iPad charger little box thing, in a different socket, AND in my laptop. Nothing. I was so frustrated, but had to go to the competition again, so I just threw it in my bag and decided I would go to Apple as soon as it opened. At the competition I was asking everyone with Apple products for help, and one of my little sister’s friends let me use her charger to see if it worked. It did! Then I was taught that I (get ready) was not pushing the charger in all the way. What is wrong with me?! I swear I have a Bachelor’s degree….

The rest of my weekend consisted on watching a lot (like a million) of dances. I started to go a little bit crazy I think. I also read a ton of my book. I’m currently reading Portia de Rossi’s book Unbearable Lightness, and I swear that I love it more and more every time I read it. Have you ever heard of it? I will do a review on it later this week after I finish it again, because it is more than worth it.

I also did a bunch of the Tone It Up workouts over the weekend and ate a lot of delicious pizza. It all balances out. Oh, and wine. Maybe that doesn’t balance out, but that’s okay.

Maybe if I actually write out on here what I want to accomplish this week, I will actually do it:

  • Work out every day and not decide to go home and watch the Kardashians instead, which I literally just decided to get into
  • Make a new YouTube video to send to Ellen; I made this one over the weekend, LOL
  • Actually call some of the people that are on my list to see if they want to get into personal training
  • Work on editing the pages on my blog
  • Research more jobs/places to live in California

Extensive, right? Just kidding. But truthfully, I am so much more likely to do something if it is written down. I tend to get distracted very easily, which I’m sure you know by now. Now I’m off to do something super exciting and watch Married to Jonas before I go to bed. What an exhilarating Sunday night! Look for lots more pictures now that I HAVE AN IPHONE! Open-mouthed smile

What was the coolest thing that happened to you this weekend?

Consistency & the little things.

I went to yoga this morning for the first time in a long time. Sure, I do routines in my room each morning, but it’s just not the same. When I’m doing yoga at home, I typically get distracted by every little thing and check my twitter every 2 minutes. I can’t do that in a studio, because I feel the instructor would be very offended if I whipped out my phone or sat down for 5 minutes because I was tired. Going to the studio forces me to actually pay attention and concentrate, which is really good for me since I won’t do it on my own. If I was a celebrity and could afford my own personal teacher at my house every morning, that would be ideal. Yes, that is what needs to happen.

Anyway, moving on. The teacher was talking about setting your intentions on specific things and talking positively to yourself. She kept talking about thinking positively because, “If you think you can, you will. If you think you can’t, you won’t.” That is completely true. I have fallen into this pattern of just going through the typical routine of my day and doing the same thing over and over. If I want to move to California and work for Ellen, am I going to do that by watching Jenna Marbles videos (which are actually very true) and drinking wine? I WISH. But no. Goodness, even Jenna Marbles didn’t know what she wanted to do with her life, made a sweet YouTube video, and is now making an insane amount of money doing something fun that she loves. That is freaking cool. You always hear stories of people making their dreams come true by hard work and dedication. It really does work.

I am also reading a book called The Compound Effect by Darren Hardy. He keeps stressing the fact that if you can just take a series of small steps consistently over time, huge things will happen. That gives me hope, because I get in this mindset that I’ll be stuck in Michigan forever. Um, no thank you. SO, since I really like lists, here are my little steps I’m going to take to work for Ellen every single freaking opportunity I can until it happens:

  1. Make a YouTube video every week showing me spreading kindness or doing something funny/uplifting in the area.
  2. Continue to write these blog posts and tweet them to her.
  3. Try to talk to a local news or radio station and see if they can help.
  4. Save money so I can actually move to LA if the opportunity arises and not be poor and live in a box.
  5. Talk to people & have them help me spread the word!

There’s probably a million more things, but I’m getting really serious and tacky and annoying and I don’t like it. I mailed my scrapbook to her yesterday and totally forgot to take a picture of it; boo. I wish I had, because it was pretty darn funny. I really don’t care how ridiculous I seem to people, because Ellen is awesome and I know I would be happy working there. The end.

Not really the end, because I have something else to say. I am going to be at my sister’s dance competition all weekend and by all weekend, I mean all weekend. 20ish hours of dancing. Oh my goodness. I need entertainment/ideas to make me not go crazy. Yes, I’ve already thought of alcohol so don’t say that one. Ready set go! <3

Learning About Myself

Alright, I have a lot to say so bear with me tonight. This is something I’ve wanted to write about for a while now, but never really knew how to say it. Want to know what changed my mind? Watching Dance Moms. I kid you not. I was watching the new episode last night when Abby said, “I can’t handle it. I’m a control freak.” I thought in my head, “Hmm, you and me both Abby Lee Miller.” Obviously in different ways, but control is one of the scariest things to lose (in my opinion at least). When you’re so used to things a certain way for an extended period of time and then everything changes when you blink, things become a little bit tough. I’ll give you a little bit of background information so you know where I’m coming from.

  • Getting all “A’s” throughout school. Control.
  • Competing in dance until the end of high school. Control.
  • Working since the age of 15. Control.
  • Participating in every possible activity I could at college. Control.
  • Developing intense workout schedules for myself and freaking out if I can’t stick to them. Control.
  • Getting into counting calories. Control.
  • Making intense to-do lists of every little thing every single day of my life. Control.
  • Having a really tough time spending money. Control.

These are all things I’ve experienced in the past. Now that I’m graduated completely from school and trying to figure out my life, I’ve lost control on a lot of these issues. I don’t have classes to get “A’s” in. I’m too old for dance. I still work, but that’s expected of someone my age now. I can’t seem to follow my workout schedules because of health issues and extra work coming up. I’m so stressed that my food choices suck. I’m learning that I have to spend a ridiculous amount of money on things now. I still make the to-do lists, but it’s a headache to follow them. And that’s just a couple of things that I’ve lost control over! I’m starting to realize that a lot of my issues I’m having currently with unhappiness, stress, etc. have to do with my lack of control. I’ve been focusing so much on developing a health and fitness career for myself that I’ve forgotten to take care of myself. I can tell you what to do to lose weight, tone up, or just be healthier, but I can’t seem to follow my own advice since I “don’t have time.” That’s bullshit! I’m making excuses for myself, and I’m just starting to realize that.

Why do I continuously do the things that I know will hurt myself, both in the short and long term? It makes no sense to me, and maybe it never will, but all I do know is that I need to do something to change it or I’m going to continue down this terrible path for the rest of my life. As I’ve said on here before, I absolutely suck at making commitments and goals. So I’m going to list some lifestyle changes that I think I would really benefit from.

  • Learning to breathe. I tend to make decisions on a whim that I later regret. This can be something as small as eating a cookie or as large as committing to an event I realize I’m just not into after saying yes. If I could just literally close my eyes for 3 seconds and take a deep breath and think about if I really want what I’m about to do, I would be able to avoid a lot of bad choices.
  • Scheduling my workouts like appointments. I am the queen of excuses. I’ve fallen into this pattern of always making an excuse for myself about why I shouldn’t exercise. Lately it’s been that I think I have something more important to do on the computer, whether it’s blog related or work related. Like, really? Those things can wait. I need to take care of myself.

  • Remembering that I don’t have to do everything on my own. I have had these previous misconceptions that everything has to be done my way and exactly how it “should be.” I’ve recently been trying to let Luke do things for me (us), but it’s been really tough. I know he’s fully capable, but I’m just not used to it yet. Sorry babe.
  • Saying no. Chalene Johnson says a good response is, “Thank you so much for thinking of me. I’ll check my schedule and get back with you.” I fully agree with that statement. Perfect. Now if only I could remember it when the opportunity arises.

Above all, I think it’s most important for me to remember that I do not have to control everything. It’s okay for me to let some things go, but I really do need to get some control back over certain areas of my life. It’s not okay to let myself eat junk food all the time just because it’s “easy.” It’s not okay to spend all my time on the computer doing work that doesn’t really need to be done. I need to learn how to spend my time wisely and how to do things that are beneficial and are helping me towards a healthier, happier lifestyle.

I’m not one of those bloggers that has a life-changing statement that will totally turn your perspective on your own attitude. Sorry. All I can do is share what you what I’ve currently been struggling with and hope that it’s something you can relate to if you’re dealing with something similar. A lot of my friends and family think I have it all put together. No, you are wrong. I do not. I am a mess. We all are in one way or another! We just have to remember that we all have our own battles and if the world just learns to be a little bit nicer place, we can help each other through them and live happily ever after <3

An Attitude Shift

I had one of the best days I’ve had in a really long time yesterday. Here’s the breakdown:

  • 5:30 am: Wake up, roll out of bed (literally), brush my teeth, throw my gym bag together, and get my butt out the door to workout.
  • 6:00 am: Arrive at gym and complete intervals of 0.5 miles on the treadmill + 10 minutes of circuit/HIIT training 4x, for a total 60 minute awesome workout.
  • 7:30 am: Leave the gym to drive to work after showering, getting ready, and making a protein shake for myself before leaving. I use brown rice protein powder if anyone cares.

  • 8:00 am – 5:00 pm: Babysit my girls! We had a GREAT day today, including ballet class, reading books at the library, going to Olive Garden for lunch, shopping for new outfits at Justice, grocery shopping, making popsicles, playing games, and doing a craft. Everyone was in a great mood today. The day flew by and was just wonderful.
  • 5:30 pm – 7:30 pm: Luke’s house for dinner/hangout time! We (he mostly!) made a delicious meal of spaghetti squash (regular penne for him) with roasted vegetables and kicked up marinara sauce, garlic bread, and a balsamic/feta based salad. SO good.
  • 8:00 pm – 10:00 pm: THE BACHELOR. Only one more episode. Boooooo.

It was a simple day, but definitely my kind of day. I am always happiest when things go according to plan. Completing my early morning workout with excess energy was such a great start to my day. I’m going to try out this schedule for the rest of the week and see how I feel come the weekend. If today is any indication, it’s really going to work out for me. I’m just so exhausted by the end of the day that the last thing I want to do is exercise. Mornings apparently work best for me!

I also tried something absolutely fantastic today. I have never drank pop, like ever, but I tried out this lemon-lime Zevia today, since we wanted to make popsicles with diet sprite, but couldn’t find it at the store. This was the next best thing! it’s all natural with no added sugars and is absolutely delicious. Luke said it’s just as good as regular sprite Smile with tongue out

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Ignore my creeping boyfriend in the background.

Today was just a reminder for me about how much a positive attitude can turn your whole day around. When you go into the day with a good outlook, things are bound to go in your favor! This is definitely something I need to remind myself of every morning right now, and hopefully it will eventually become habit.

Since a while ago I said I was going to do a Q and A each Tuesday, I decided to just tell ya’ll some random facts because I feel like it and I’ve drank a lot of wine tonight.

  • I grew up as a competition dancer, from the ages of 3-17.

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  • I have been dating Luke since September of 2008.
  • I am still best friends with my kindergarten bff, Erica Smile

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  • I am absolutely obsessed with gummy bears.

  • I cry, a lot. Mostly for happy things. Last thing I cried at was the Beyonce documentary. Luke laughed at me.

  • My 3 favorite celebrities are Ellen DeGeneres, Jillian Michaels, and Miley Cyrus.
  • I am so freaking excited to be a mom one day.
  • I could eat salsa with a spoon and pickles every day of my life and be totally content.

  • I get the same thing at just about every restaurant I go to, every single time.

Okay, so today I’m hoping to have somewhat of the same schedule I had yesterday. Keep your fingers crossed for me that I can stick to it!

Have you ever tried Zevia? Any other flavors you can recommend for me?